TRULY strange (bdsm mmorpg) days

try to imagine this is text on a bdsm dating site.. written by a no limit 247 dominant.. who happens to be making a bdsm mmorpg.. well no need to imagine… 700,000 of lost wages and cost s so far.. BUT DAMNIT.. it was the coolest thing i could think of… if you know any psychotic hot chicks into bdsm who might live in new york city… YOU TOO can help create the first adult themed virtual planet earth… set according to “modern future and classic rules of the most famous pen and paper rpg”

if any of my friends are reading this.. i get bored too damnit.. and being strategic and hiding works for everything but this bullshit.. and i love to put my worst foot forward..  every single time and moment in my life…

til i run into the big bad wolf.. and then ill try.. ooohhh its the rope a dope technique.. but like.. as a reality hacker… nywayz EEP (hides behind bush)

have you ever seen the film “Strange Days“?

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Strange_Days_(film)
if not, go watch it

you will soon realise.. perhaps.. that the device known as “Google Glas” does the same thing as the “Squid” from “Strange Days”
it records what is happening in front of you, in realtime, from YOUR viewpoint.
live video feed or recorded.. from the EYE VIEWPOINT of the user.

in the movie “Strange Days,” viewers of these recordings were able to also experience the sensations and feelings of the user who recorded the footage.

i suppose that’s where all the writing comes in. while people on the site may have read whatever gobbledegook i may have been writing that day, I was busy just practising writing my thoughts.. six years of practise… the thoughts i wrote were boring on purpose

i mean.. ewww give away content for free..?
besides.. i used to find lovers through writing erotica.. and i find that not as long lasting as

finding partners through LOGIC and a similar detailed plan that spans 247 365 for a few decades (yes i plan all the away out.. cause im like that)

the cool thing about being a true 247 365 dominant, is that as soon as i get my first collarme slave, i dont have to worry about production.. shaping traing using molding deconditioning, dehumanizing and going through all those lovely fetishes (which would be ALL of them if the slave is no limit)

i live in new york.. which is awesome because you actually CAN be 247 365 here.. everywhere in public.. heck you can walk a slave down the street on a leash while topless here if you want

sex in public is super easy in new york city.. IF you know it as well as i do.. or even better.. homeless people and occupy wall streeters are probably the world masters at finding places to have sex in public

even in the most populated city in the whole united states
god love em for exploring and pushing past the edge us so called BDSMers literally never even DREAMED to cross

[i lie, female submissives dream to cross every edge and every boundary, but they are limited to WHAT experiences they can have, by the fact that they have Dominants with limits, human dominants and dehumanized limitless slaves.. this also included me.. so i came up with a lifelong art project that would allow me to truly live 247 365

I dunno. I got bored of my job, so I thought “hey, your amazing at hunting finding and shaping women into slaves or dommes or whatever they dream to become.. the most no limit dominant you can be and then you can find one of those super extreme collarme types and… document it in every medium.. edit it down to the most artistic stuff that will sell art or subsciibers.. voila.. decades of true everyone in the house 247 365 will ensue”

well
now there is google glass
so i dont have to put a shit ton fo time into all those camera angles
and a whole bunch of things

the dom can wear one
the slaves and dommes in the house or who visit can wear them

do stuff
all the time
stuff that the slaves dream.. way before they live there

so its natural
primal
all the time day and night
not preplanned and scheduled out and all that

although there is that too.. but scheduling something
in a house that everyone in it is 247
very easy

i have a strange sort of .. thing
i attract dommes
all the time in real life.. in fact thats all ive ever attracted .. strangely..
and i let them domme me.. cause im greedy
and they crave and shape me into something hungrier.. more ruthless.. and less limited than i was before
and then .. as long as i dont hold back.. they give themselves to me in exchange for MORE of that power
i feed them.. and ruthlessly shape them into

unless she specifically requests to be subservient to others.. any salve fo mine is a crazy wild dominant to everyone else

why? because they are an extension of my will and i desire no human to get in the way of my will.. so i shape them to be a part of me
the most submissive woman can be a dominant if they truly live their dreams
serve their dream sensations and experiences

but i prefer to have a more traditional life in bdsm.. for the artistic reasons

so im here to better select
the last pieces for this art project
the last parts of the lifetime i plan to have

in my past if i wanted a slave
i just somehow attracted a domme
in new york
and then (except for two)
i fed them whatever they wished
and eventually
that meant feeding them an all hungry
infinite lust having
intellectually surrounding
and multi orgasmic feeding
ruthless

beast totally dedicated to shaping them into something
much much more powerful than when i met them

and voila
ive done it all (no pedo, no homo, no diapers.. well i tried diapers just to be good at it but im not into it so much.. it looks bad in art and on film .. to me at least.. i dunno i guess i should take it off my limit list.. BUT.. i dunno mmy main slave cant be a diaper wearer.. itd have to be the second or third.. and hopefully not 247.. ya kno?)

i dunno.. im attracted to hunger and power
and i attract hunger and power
so i had to come here to collarme

to get a girl who is WANTING to submit.. i refuse to just feed feed energy to regular women until they do submit to their own lust for more.. which results in something MUCH more extreme than what ive seen in most domme/sub.. it just feels sleazy.. and if i dont do that.. then they arent getting what they want and it falls apart anyways

ive never had a slave who planned and dreamt to become one BEFORE they met me.. maybe deep down or something, but they werent professing to look for that

with google glass everything is much easier.. focus on teh shaping the molding the feeding the slaves what they desire most.. put the effort in .. which is more than you can imagine

which explains why i havent seen the profiles on here…
in more than just the words on the profiles

with google glass.. just DO the actual work of being 247 365.. do the work of shaping that reality to match whatever was on the profile.. do the process of shaping and molding yourself and the slave(s) into creatures that can maintain that for a lifetime

and hilarity will ensue.. more dommes and more subs and slaves will become involved

and you have everything
all the details of the techniques and processes (that can be transmitted in visual form.. the tantra stuff and meditative stuff i guess would have to be detailed in text.. the sensations and such as well… hence why it has to be a multimedia project)

you still have to edit the footage and categorize it according to fetish (for the bdsm/fetish encyclopedia part of the project) and for time/content (for the blog/art part of the project)

youve got to take all those hours of footage and edit them down to “installments” (sort of like episodes) and if you want to do feature length stuff.. you have to edit and plan for that

you will most likely also have to do traditional footage.. as well.. which is why i have the panasonic GH2 (as well as a selection of the best lenses available for different “looks”)

finally there is all the editing.. effects and looks.. and the final translation of the footage from real life looking stuff to cartoony “A Scanner Darkly”http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Scanner_Darkly sort of look.. (also “Waking Life”http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Waking_Life) (also the film “Fire and Ice”http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Waking_Life) .. the look is generaly called “Rotoscoping” http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rotoscoping..

this has several advantages.. primarily is that each frame is redone in art.. so i can do whatev i want to hide the face or identity of anyone in it.. for no real extra effort

should the public say they want real flesh looking footage.. i can release alternate edits using the standard methods of hiding identity if i need (like blurring and masks, hoods, facepaint, etc)

i dont ned to get rich.. so i dont even have to CARE what peopel will think.. as long as i live as ive lived before.. intellectually.. sensually.. giving every opunce fo effort to making the day to day life EVEN MORE INTENSE than teh slaves (or visitng dommes) ever dreamt…

and as long as i put my best effort into the audio production, video and audio editing, and the art (both motion and drawings/photgraphy.. including poetry and non fiction writing that reads like erotica.. to convey thoughts and things )

eh… a real record of a true8 247 365 life.. in new york city.. thyat also has a fetish by fetish audio/video/written/blog encyclopedia of bdsm fetishes (and i suppose my limited techniques and links and descriptions of more)

ideally.. IDEALLY i would be able to get a decent EKG and use it to record the actuall brain activity of subspace, pain, orgasmic and multiorgasmic pleasure

i have made connections with biologists, to we can periodically test the amount fo endorphins inthe blood strem

and of course whatver actual speicifc thing the slave wishes to become

fuckmeat
painpig
fuckpig
dehumanized 3 hole slut

they all have psychology involved and i believe that the methods ive practised over the last twenty years and explored and studied (many of them from a variety fo disciplines that cover reshaping the consiousness, such as yoga, martial arts, and religion, ritual, clothing and devotional acts)

its nto about better or worse than what folks do
i simply want to document

ONE stykele or form of 247 365 living
ti wont be necesary to actually be a 247 365 dominant to explore ro follow along
but i want to do that element of it

1 – becaus e thats what ive lived since i was arund 22 (starting at 19)
2 – i want to document research, the results will be more in depth and immersive on every level if 247
the person ro peopel involved can be not that
but the ENVIRONMENT being 247 365… is obviously the only way to really have
teh best results scientifcally ro even artistically

its not all fun and games
i shape myself too to match teh desires of the slaves
or the public i expect to view or trash and ignore this art

ive got to gain around 25 pounds… to get where the popular idea of a dominant claims i should be

and even that part.. the different phsycial excercises that use slaves as the gym
weaving the food and eating into the bdsm
whether because the slave is trained to prepare over time
or because she is the table or plate i eat off of while using

but all of these things
everything youve ever read in the MOST extreme submissive profiles
will be documented from the vioewpoints of all concerned

and put into a artsy package (with extended versions, raw footage, available as well)

i took story of o
truman show
waking life
a scanner darkly
and “altered states”
and put them into one project

the idea came up in 1999
i had to go to china to study a lot more
nolimit bdsm
and also all those artforms in actual practise not theory
to procede

ive got the location (perfect and interestingly dungeony . in a spanish neighboorhood.. good for both paricipating gorgeous girls .. or easy access to gang bang participants as needed… also a hop skip and jump to the weekly bdsm events and clubs that this city is KNOWN for)

its been killing KILLING my savings and earnings
but i have the time and resources waiting

its been hard to avoid vanilla women
and less than lifetime commitments
and any woman who would not be okay living in the 247 365 ive had for the last 20 years (minus last year)

i lookd at all the slave profiles and dreams
going back thousands of years
because that research was part fo the prroject
and this was the only thing i could come up with
taht would remotely justify a dominant
living 247 like a slave
but still eb a beast
still gather power
still be a dominant

while also matching the slave dreams exactly
as on her profile before being owned

this project this life ive had for so long
isnt for everybody
its amenable to vanilla or submissive women
but ideally
and for maximum effect and art (or sales)
it works best if the sub or slave is

extreme

if she isnt
well.. its not liek theres any competition
i could have a sub and write her poems every day
and just document the search
for her highest orgasmic state
or most number of orgasms per day (sadly my record is a pathetic 23.. im not being sarcastic.. theres women that have 200orgasms a day.. i dont own them though.. lol)

i dunno
as i was trained to do
by slaves and domems my whole life
every single tiny detail was prepared for
i studied beign a perfect beast and perfect sensualist
for two decades (i was a gigolo and pro dominant the first couple years… and a tantra student for the next 20 after that.. i study tantra every day because the easiest way to dehumanize a woman is to overload her with pleasure across every area she can perceive… orgasms all day all night every day every night for a few years…

I KNOW that it causes a true sort of… i guess we can say dehumanization.. btu its way deeper than that

all the other things must feed into, support, and work to enhance that effect..

ivenever seen the perfect salve
ive seen hundreds of consensaul slaves inmy travels
ive seen thousands of non consensual human trafficked women because .. omfg theres so many of them… over my time (no i never used any nor have i trafficked any… but as someone who documents the WHOLE range fo bdsm on earth.. of course .. aykno?)

i dontthink im gonna make a perfect slave
i dont think im a better dom than anyone

but

i woudl like to share what ive learned and experienced
not by remaking the life i think is cool and making art out of it

but by… for goddamn once
seeing what merits are in the imagination of the slaves
and actually living it
so that the art we see in bdsm
is not so one sided

i dont mena one sided cause the men
or any race

i mean i want to paint the picture of bdsm ive seen in the minds of slaves
but not in real life

i dont even know if i can do it
what if i burn out after a couple years and have to become 18/6 or 350 .. and own a 247 365 slave
thats the norm
cause dominants are not beasts

but i wanna be a real beast
and see what happens
in my eyes and feelings and self
and others

an experiment
that im not a millionaire to pay for

and frankly
no amount fo moey can helpme get slaves off this site

but if i have one slave
and do this project
yeah

i bet this site will be mucyh much easier to deal with then

i have witheld from cheating
by seducing a nilla
or finding a girl interested in money ro fame alone
rom something like this

i mean id acpet opffers
but i wont look for them anywhere but here
i did that a few times
and .. well

as you see that didnt work

i get deleted unread andblocked so often on this site
i can only go cry to my domme friends

after six years on this site
each year detailing more and more of my plans
i see the chances less and less of any other dominant being the idiot to try it

besides
hard to duplicate twenty years of living
witht he sole purpose of explorign the edges of whats possible

what is human?
what is dehumanized
what is programmed
what is mi9cromanaged

iw ant to push the envelope of these things
study and evolve their methods
ive done it for so long that even my exes
have phds in human sexuality}
seriously

but…. im nto goign to school
}or doing some other bullshit
to get known ro recognized
and THEN do this project

thats weaksauce
before this project inever even went to a munch ro a bdsm site
no need
i hutned masters and slaves
and they taught me shit
and i explored that shit
and put in my own research and development
and explored my own techniques too along with the ones form others

this site is it
unless i cheat
but if i cheat
if im a hypocrite
then guess what?

im nto giving the slaves who choose me
exactly the dominant they imagined
inhuman
strict down to the second
and unwilling to be anything less
than teh most they can be

mad hate on here to me
made fakes
peopel that tell me stuff
and then in the flesh

nope

sportfucking me like some dude

ive made mistakes
plent fo them
ive fumbled the ball
on two slaves before in 20 years
and when a vanilla woman wants me to feed her more
pleasure
ain
so that she is addicted to me despite her dreams

i pulled back
i dont want to steal my food
i dotn want to take a vanilla woman from her fate

i want to document a master born to be one
craving to explore more of what slavery is
what bdsm is

and match that to women
subs dommes switches slaves
i couldnt care less
whoalso want to explore their own imaginary definitions of pleasure
pain

dominance
and lust …

as in the past
i knwo i will get lesbians
i will get soft loving subs

and id otn care
that will bring what i crave to explore most

a woman who dreams of truly becoming owned on every level
and in every way
shaped to eb the perfect lust object
or object or animal creature or addiction

for her owner

i seek those who want to know what forever is
knwoing that.. because fo this project
if i give less than forever

back to my day job cause the publci will know im bullshit

luckily
i am NOT bullshit

imean
i have time i can wait for a llong time
until i do this project nobody else willeb able to do it BETTER
cause they cant imagine what i will do

BUT
now that im seriously
hunkered down
now that my whole life is focused on startign the project i planned nine years ago
which i worked on for six years on this site usually 18 hour days here for the first four years

now that i have the space resoucesd equipment
and time

ihave to be celibate
i have to avoid vanilla women no matter how beautiful or how much tehy say they want to be mine
how great their mouth or pussy or mind feels
wrapped aroundmy cock
or my love lust hunger hands wrapped aroudn them

thats it… im starving myself out

its hard

i cant cheat and pretend im somebody else

im me
im the guty who has put his whole life into
and lost everything for
posessign a slave from collarme sure

but living a life posessed by teh lust imagination
and dreams of a slave

its rough
peopel say dommed from the bottom
peopel say whatever
all kinds of shit

my job is sfor huge corporations
so .. eyah when i start this project. when i have a slave i can be public
but until it gets enough to sustain more than my old job
i sorta have to hide a bit

the places i work for know what i do
so i dont hide in person
but their clients wouldnt like
soemone liek what i will be in public
when i have my slave

being attached to what they have me do. whcih si somebig money shit

right now i work for a company thats openminded
btu with nothing to show for whati do with all this time

its ttough
even for me

iwish i knew how to give up
so i coudl give up on this site

but
every single day im here
i red mor profiles
and more slave dreams
and i knwo .. the same thing i knew ten years ago

noone on earth lives like that
liek whats on yoru profile
i knwo we all say we do
we all pretend we do
we all act liek the pornos are real

but when you look atteh fine print and the details
of the slave dreams
nobody lives them exactly

and so every day im here
trying to find soemone to give their own exact EXACT dreams to

and i dunno
my race
my midnmy body the way that i speak

is fucking depressing
beign the only one fro a long time
curious enough to say “okay ill live like that with you just to see”

and yet
is ee profiles here that are real people
unowned for years
ive seen peopel change their profiles

form the crazy shit unowned
to… well i can look at my own 9-5 past
i can look at teh day to day of millionaire dominants i know

who HAVE 247 free.. andhow they spend it
i can look at teh al too human look inthe eyes
of slaves that claim to be dehumanized

and know
for no reason that makes sense
we in the bdsm world
have to fantasize like everyone else

well
im sorry
submissives in the bdsm world have to fantasize
because we dominants value
our free time
our humanity

well
i tricked myself
now i must live that life
to move forward with life
and better myself
so i cant pretend i cant avoid
i cant enjoy lopsided the dreams

penance
for all the slaves i caught but didnt keep
im no theif
im no beggar though

i wil setal and devour every single ounce fo you
if you ask me to
before i fuck you

but anything else
is too passive agressive
too wimpy for me

so im here
not just to live the life ive always ddreamt fo
but to document the life youve always dreamt of

i mean

arent the slaves of the world tired
of boosk fo gor and stroy of o
and secretary

and god damned 50 shades fo grey

im not the best dominant
i dont have the best story to tell
but lets live intense
lets live your dreams
and at elast offer up to the world
something

less boring than 50 shades
a dominant just as inhuman as his slave
a mind much more dicsciplined and strict
adn all devouring
than tthese fictional dominants

vanillas
thats who create our fiction

iam an artist
primarily of the senses

of the consio0usness i will shape it and mold it to serve my will

my will
was to be entertained by more than heavy metal books
my will was to haev a prono
even i coudl watch and not get bored by

if that pohase
if this part here works
and im on my last month fo trying

for now

then i can finish the bdsm mmorpg ive been working on for a while
andhave real alsaves
a real blog about a real polyhouse 247 365
that so happens to be making a bdsm mmorpg
with the audio video and motions

day to day lives
of real slaves

i liek lesbians
ultimately and ideally as i have done in the past
id love to own lesbians
and usemy brain andmy art
to hunt sexy dommes
to use them shape them mold them
borrow them for a few days as painpigs or pets

that way teh art teh blog the othe rrelateds
inclduign thoughts and feelings
arent just from one guy/girl persepctive

ya kno?

thats teh easy part

in fact i did all the hard parts fo this whole project

iro9nic i suck at

just this one

finding a sexy intense curious slave
who cant fidn the life she wants anywhere on earth

to even consider living it
in th one place on earth it does exist

not in my hands actually

but in this project

so

now that you have my blueprint a little more

since im not worthy to own anyone here apparently

somebody else take this blueprint
run with it

but see

the worlds largest porno company offered me aa million dollars a year to do it

the vanilla girl i had as a slave.. had to leave my hands
because the five vanilla guys she was fuckign befopre she started on this lifetime and prioject

told her they would tell her GRANDMOTHER
she was a WHORE for a black N1gg3r cock.. if she didnt quit.. didnt go back to nilla

after hat event, the 300fans on the website for my LSST bdsm blog

told me to come to collarme and that OTHER site
to find another bdsmers like US
to do the project with

and ive been here ever sicne
ocxasionally i get weak
because a hot nilal girl shows strength fo hunger

and always… it takes so many months to reealize
they have no idea w

the difference bewteen what tehmost extreme no limit slaves calla slave
and what a nilla person calls one

coudlnt be farther apart

jason bourne
isnt even a halfway decent
pathetically close to the WORST example
of a dehumanized being
compared to what a slave thinks

and guess what
i know all about the difference

id unno….

the effort i put into makingmy oaths and vows unbreakable over the decades
prevent em from beign able to even THINK
about giving up
withotu severe psychic trauma

so im stuck here

on collarme
cause that OTHER site
is for socializeing and dating

im nto here for either
im here to find someone cute

who desires to be a slave
if they want a domme ill train them up and we can hunt a domme together
if they want a master

well as long as tehy want the strictest most inhuman no limit 247 365 master on earth

yeahhhh were allo good
if tehy dont
my project will still work
but sorta
ill ahve to be using the project itself to help hunt more slaves

lol

which is cool
i could use a soft love a nice sub
while i work
and ofcourse
as wel all know
its easier to find a slave
as a couple
than without

as a poly house

than a single dom

my whoel life has taught me that

since ive only been single for a few months
out fo the last twenty years

in any event
im poptimistic
and maybe one day soon

ill just redo my whoel profile
and make it focused just on this project

but til then

i hope somebody truly wanst tolive whats on their profile
im curious to see who can sift through everythign here

to find the onl plan i could come up with (adn im smart)
to make their profile dreams true

as this whole last six years on this site
has been my only obstacle
my onl failure
my only real pain

ever

im emotional
im not editing or fixing typos

not just here but most fo my page
i lost my SON over this project

becaus ei wasnt goign to hire a lawyer and steal him from his mom

who i MET cause she said she wantd to do the project

but when she foudn out i made six figures
iw as just working as a consultant for less to do the project

yep u guesed it
CATCH a NI;;;;;;;

whatev
he would ahev been a beautiful dominant

all of my strengths
none fo my weaknesses

ive lived every dream i ever had except to get a slave from collarme
cute enough for this project

what woudl he have become if i had rasied him?
probably saved 100,000 lives before he was 18
most likely

whoknows
il never know
nowi must live the life of his that was stolen
and my ownlife

fucjkk you nilla worrld
but to me nowdays

this whoel world is a nilla world

i cantgo back now

so much money
so many years
to make me what i am
to prctise and prepare for every element fo the lives i see onmany many profiles

tolive those lives six years at a time.. different subs slaves and dommes

i dint cookie cutter

i made them what they craved ot be
i gave them every experince they dreamt fo having
just not forever of course

and here i am
searching for forever

wanting to document it too
through my eyes and yours
literally

and whomever you dream of
to join us

im devil
with no faust
i am samael
with no lilith

no crown of flesh
no throne fo wriggling lust

i currrently do not exist

outside of memory
and this page

caus ethe world you call a world
is nothing to me but stones
to walk through and build up
in exchange for what i need
to encage you
to own you
with the fleshand miond
of your OWN dreams

—– excessively large percentage of profits go to freeing victims
of human trafficking

 

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